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 Fuck can life be cruel. My mother-in-law got COVID 2.5 months ago. She was in the hospital and by week three they said there was nothing left that they could do because every treatment they had tried had failed.  She is 74 with pre-existing conditions (emphysema and COPD) and to top it off  she had developed pneumonia from the COVID. During those weeks in the hospital they had cathed her to make her more comfortable and everyday we called she was becoming to week to talk to us. They even tried the heated hi-flo o2 and nothing was working. The doctor said that her prognosis was getting worse and that we needed to start evaluating how we wanted to proceed since mom said she did not want a DNR or a DNI. She was also refusing the feeding tube. We knew at that point she would continue to decline because she was closing down and retreating into herself because in the state of Montana if you have COVID you may not have any visitors and as long as you have symptoms they will not...

Things are never easy which is why I get lost in books. I've been writing and reading and writing but things continue to be... So, I'm still not in the mood to share my sad and fucked up past, but man when I say it did a number on me... It truly FUCKED me (and not in a good way) but for now.... life... what can I say, it has it's ups and downs... I am now in my junior year (bachelors) which took a couple years longer than I had anticipated because while going for my AA I decided I wanted to be a writer and took every possible humanities class and writing class they offered, needless to say i ended up with a shit tone of credits going into the university but being that we live in a small town I had to do it online and well, good luck finding a writing school online. So now I am going in communications with a minor in media arts.  But what ever.. im getting the shit done, which is why I have decided to start blogging again so I can get used to writing. But with this i am the ...